More and more, though, I’ve been realizing that I’ve been relying on my own strength to raise support. I’ve been relying on my own wisdom and ability to find people who will support my ministry. I’ve been trying to accomplish God’s work for Him essentially. I knew all along that God was the one who would provide, but somehow, I felt like I could get it done, and just let the nebulous “working in people’s hearts” end of things to Him. You would think I’d have caught on before this, but no, I’m a stubborn one. God has been waiting for me to ask Him.
In the last week or so, I’ve been learning to ask Him first. And it’s been exciting. I was pretty well at the end of my rope last week, and then I went to a small Bible study. I had hopes of talking with people, and maybe building some relationships. I also really wanted to hear from God, because I was realizing just how much I needed Him. So, He showed up on Saturday night, just for me. He spoke through the people at that Bible study in ways I would never have expected. Not only did I end up sharing about my ministry, but they prayed for me, gave to me, and even asked me to come back and meet with them again! The rest of the week has been just like that. People from all over, in the most random places and ways giving, or committing to give. It has been overwhelming!
When God says He will provide, He will. But don’t get in the way. Let Him work, and just ask Him to keep doing it. And like the persistant widow, don’t stop asking either.